Last year I was bullied by an old friend and her group of "new friends" online. They kept on making fun of my appearance and belittling me and if I tried to say my opinion, they would just gaslight me into thinking I am the problem.
She was a very dear friend to me and we were friends for almost a decade, She did this to few of our other friends so they cut ties with her years ago however I still kept talking to her thinking she must've matured by now.
She knew I was secretly bullied and even beat up at school so I get insecure very easily and overthink every interaction yet she did that to me and went around and talked shit about me and made some of our mutual friends cut ties with me, blocking me everywhere for no reason.
It was when I was just getting out of my depression and that put me back again, I had to drop out of university and that pushed me back a year in my studies. Now she's become a popular influencer and I feel horrible.
I know I sound pathetic but it makes me mad seeing her happy, every time she posts of a new sponsorship she got, I want her to go through everything I went through. It makes me mad seeing her thriving when I had to lose a year of my life for words I'm sure she doesn't even remember she said. I even watch all her stories and content with an anonymous account and that makes me hate myself. I don't know what to do will I ever forget everything? Or do I have to just keep living like a loser like this.
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